something written before I left New Zealand..
Not to me, Father, not to me, but to You be all praise and glory forever.
"Over all the glory will be a canopy. It will be a shelter and shade from the heat of the day, and a refuge and hiding place from the storm and rain." (Isaiah 4:5b-6) You see, these are life words to me. A canopy over the glory. The glory of the Lord- the great Will of God. A canopy will be over it. That's it, the secret to knowing the will of God. How often we as mere humans struggle to "find the will of God". I know so many people that want to live his/her life for God, but are so uncertain all of the time as to the direction God is leading them. We find ourselves worrying about our futures constantly, trying to decide about college, graduate school, boyfriends, sororities, or even the seemingly smaller things like spending enough time praying or being in the word, studying for tests, insecurities, etc. All in one instant we find that our lives have completely turned on end and are upside down and backwards from how you ever thought it would be. OK, probably not that drastic, but what are you uneasy about? Yeah, go ahead, we all have them. Recently I've been so frusterated with myself for not spending time in prayer and in the Word. I've been angry at my slothfullness and my lack of care toward other people. I've been eating a lot out of boredom and thus adding to my list of aggitations. I'm not living in the canopy. This is not what God had planned as best for my life right now. Yes, we have those certain souls that would say "nothing is outside the will of God." I agree. I dont' think I'll ever be able to wrap my mind around a world that the Holy One does not have absolute and utter control and power over, after all, He created it, so everything createD would be lesser than He, deeming Him as Lord and Master. But, just because He can doesn't mean He does utterly control. No, no our loving Father does what He created the Father figure to do, allows His children to learn and grow from mistakes and hard lessons. A child will only truly know to trust a Father when He tells them not to do something after they have done something and reaped the consequences of that disobedient action. (Was it meant to be that way- after the fall, I mean?)
